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2006-08-23 + 10:49 p.m. "It doesn't matter if he loved you, And it's true. He really does. He isn't scared by all of my silly little quirks and neurosis. He feels his life is better because of me. He loves me. So what's the problem? It's so simple right? Right. But it's so calm and quiet and that scares me. Because I can't quite accept the fact that could really be it. He could be the love of my life. "You've tricked something out of that imagination of yours that you call love. And you expect the real thing to look like it." Though I think "The Love of Your Life" can apply to more than one person. Jon is definitely the love of my life, at this time in my life. And most days, I feel that he always will be. But part of me is holding out for my Drama. Who needs love when you have Drama? Ahem. And that's the only reason I keep those memories around. To prove to myself that things have happened to me, and that I have lived a life that is my own. I just need to put them in their proper place. I've had Drama for the past 5 years. Now I'm ready to try love. |